Monday, July 27, 2009

Subtle Changes

Perhaps it is us who change, and not other people. Maybe, we are the ones who are getting harder to approach or have conversations with. It is easier to think it's other people, and I think I may have been thinking it's other people all the time before, now I think a little differently.
I may be the reason.
It could be happening in ways I have no control of, or a little control of. I am changing and it is hard to know why. I am not talking of drastic changes, but subtler ones. Changes I no longer can put my fingers on. It's ironic since my life is not going through any changes, but the changes are taking place in my mind... Perhaps it is because I live in my head (I say that a lot, but I somehow truly believe that I sometime do live there most of the time). It's actually something that's interesting, getting lost in thoughts that even I don't know the end of, or to where they lead but I just have to surrender myself to them to see where they lead.

I do realize I am still the clumsy girl who has to say everything there is to say about a topic to give it its justice and to explain it fully to the listener, and I also realize I have to make compromises, and to live and let live. It's funny how these simple yet affective things dawn on you in the least expected times...

How seeing these two women again made me think, how I actually remember them even though it's been years since I saw them, but they give great insight on the world because of what they've been through...

Perhaps we are simpletons, and perhaps our minds work in mysterious ways. All of this may have seemed vague, and I think that was the point, since the thoughts I'm having are vague themselves, so I think I am doing them justice by leaving them vague, yet they are very precise in my mind...

I'll leave you to ponder!

3 comments:

ViCtoria* said...

Wow, that was vague huh :P But all of us go through changes, even if it seems as if nothing's going on in our lives. But there always is, at least in our minds, as you say!

Especially at this age, we're changing everyday!

Noor said...

Yes, exactly! We are changing everyday... You hear me amiga...

Thank you for ur comment... <3

Rohit Kulkarni said...

loll..you have now officially attained the new level of randomness! Take is as a compliment Newr. I liked the way you wrote this post. Absolutely brilliant. You reminded me of Joseph Conrad...so similar. I see that spark of a great writer in you.

Also, I am back to blogging. So thought I'd say hi. And your suggestion on what to post helped so thanks a lot! =D