Wednesday, January 30, 2008
I was asked a couple of questions by some friends. Really simple questions and I couldn't answer them.
Are you happy?
Where do you see yourself in 10/15 years from now?
The first I answered without thinking saying I was indeed happy, the other I simply blabbered some answer without even thinking and said I need to actually think about it.
They really got to me. When it comes to be happy or something like that, I don't like actually thinking about it and discovering what I truly feel. I'm afraid I wouldn't be happy. I'd feel as if I were a really un-grateful person. That would be awful.
But anyways that's not my point. I'm just trying to say how we need to think about those simple questions. Whether they're questions of existance, faith or anything of the sort. Let's not be afraid of the real answer, maybe they won't be the answers you want them to be. But maybe by knowing the answer, you can know more about yourself and you can improve yourself/your life and make it what you want it to be.
Try to think of some of those questions and ponder upon them. Take your time, and just go deep inside your soul. I know this might be cliche but seriously it's true. I mean, ok I can't say it's true. Because I just need to let this out so that I can think about them. But it's just that sometimes I'm afraid of the answer, and I'm afraid that I can't handle it.
What if I really can't handle the answers I get?
And what if once I look inside I won't find any answer? Hopefully that wouldn't be possible. I'm getting too philosophical and I don't want to start asking 'What if' questions. They're useless, and they just discourage you from doing things.
Let me see what questions do I want to know:
Who am I?
What is it that I'm meant to do?
Am I happy?
What do I want?
What life am I leading? Is it the life I want?
And there's this song by Jack Johnson, he's really great, called 'Better Together' and he says:
Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart ,
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?